Butterflies In Your Stomach, Cashews In Your Mouth


Hey! Hello! Good Evening Cutie!

Have you ever felt homesick when you were at home? The feeling like you aren't actually home but alone in the shelter from the elements you are living in? It is your home. But you can't help but feel sick to your stomach because home just doesn't feel like home when it is missing something else.
Sure I have everything I need, food, electricity, my dog, a cat I don't really like. My bed. My Tv's. Its where my wifi is. Considering that these are all something you need in your life, it still doesn't feel like home.

Everyone has something that makes them feel like they belong. Be it a person, an object, etc. Mine oddly enough comes in the form of a person. As much as I don't want to admit it. I usually pride myself in always feeling at home when I am home. Or whenever I am with that person. It didn't occur to my that I was lost when I was home alone, that I didn't feel right. It wasn't until recently that I started to realize what this sick feeling was. And there was no way to rectify this feeling right away, the only cure was to let time pass on.

My personal favorite reaction to seeing someone I like is the constant butterflies. I get them all the time when I think of the person I favor. The downside is the constant stream cashews that fall out of my mouth when I try to talk to them. I talk too much and I talk about everything. Which can be annoying. Not everyone appreciates seeing the cashews pouring out of your mouth. And it just keeps pouring out, hoping that they understand everything you are saying when you finally stop. But sometimes you get frustrated because you are asked to repeat yourself but slower. And you oblige because you like them.

I just want you all to know, I have a strong dislike for cashews. I wish I liked them. I just don't like their taste. Which is why I used them for a metaphor. Plus I saw it once on a youtube series. I think its a really hilarious quote, and I try to use it often to see if other people get where I got it from. Sadly there is only one person who does. Other people, I've had to show it to them so they understood half of my obscure quotes.

There are some other shows where I will occasionally quote, and some of you may get it, and some of you won't. Which is okay.

So without any other complicated thoughts and feelings! I will see you all tomorrow!! Sorry for the late posts lately! Sometimes, it takes me a while to think of what I am going to be writing for the day.


Todays Song Recommendations!

"Take It Slow" - Xan Langston
"Nectarines" General Vibe

I just want to point out, every song I have recommended so far can be found on spotify.

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